Japan

The last time I went to Japan before this trip last month was in 2007. I came home depressed and generally bummed out about Japan. I came home last week feeling the same way. I don't know exactly why that happens but it's been a lingering thought of mine. I can't completely wrap my head around it. It's a lot to do with their culture and how they raise you. What is respectable, what isn't, how society put such a heavy burden on kids, etc. I've been going through this weird Japanese-American identity crisis for the past 6 years or so. Having citizenship in both Japan & the US, I've thought about it a lot. Where can I draw the line? It's probably something I'll wrestle with for a long time.